Be careful what you wish for

Edit here: No comments. Please, drop one by once and awhile so i know this shit's being read at all. Even if its a comment telling me this thing sucks, i just want comments. Of course, preferaly positive ones. Ok, here's the entry as i had originally wrote it now-_-_-_- Well, here i am. Reborn as a free man once again. No longer held down by stupid restrictions. Un-Grounded. In all my past blogs of being kinda in the dumps, i've said several times that each day seems worse than the last. To go back would be fantastic. Well, with summer rapidly approaching, they might. I'm getting to talk with some of the people i've lost over the past year. And, those who are newer in my life are leaving. Its kinda nice. When summer comes i hope chad and i can hang out constantly like we did b4 lax started up. Those were the days. Before summer however, comes school. I've lost all motivation. Nothing left at all. I go, and just daze. Stare blankly at the teacher, not taking in a single word that is said. I have no doubt that my grade will reflect that, but i'm ok with that. I've always been told to just do the best you can, nothing more can be asked. Well, for having Zero motivation, i think i'm doing pretty darn good. My best, for sure. I started the countdown for how many days are left. I started too early this year, making it only more depressing. The count as of today?...19 days. Damn. I had to work tonight, as i will 2morow night, down at village lanes. Conjested area, not much fun. During work, i called Tues and asked if something was going down. She said maybe bills. After work i call bill, Tues is coming. I call her. No answer. Call again. No answer. Surprised?...Not really. I'm not going to say she deliberatly didnt answer my calls, because i dont know the facts. Just, seems a little fishy...No? So here i am. Alone and bored on a saturday morning writing in here. Relaxed more than ever, and glad to be back in the free world. The fact that i couldve gone out tonight makes the night a sucess as it is. Kali = (cool)^2. Farewell for now. -n00bit