Sometimes I need to relax

I'm looking back at my past blog entry, and almost finding it amusing. I'm ok with everything now. Not upset, just hanging in there. I realize now how much respect/trust i have lost. And, for some reason, i'm perfectly ok with that. By choosing to allow last saturday to happen, i put everything on the line. And, i lost. Shit happens. I lost respect/trust from two people that i cant hdnle losing it from though. My mother, and Kyle. Two people i trust and care for quite a bit in different ways. To those 2 people, and those two only, i appologize sincerly for my actions taken last weekend. Truly, you two have my full regret and appologies. I hope someday we can look at eachother the same, and be back on the same level. But honestly, besides those two, Fuck whoever else i dissapointed. My eye opener phase is finally done here. Chad Sunseri and Kyle are truly irreplaceable friends. Unique and trustworthy in different ways i cant explain. With them, i'll hang in there. I cant say enough good about you 3. Some of the things I said in the last entry about who my real friends were was kinda fucked up. I remember three or four months ago. Me sunseri krista chad kyle, and many others that i used to know and love just hanging around. Maybe it was ping pong, not really sure. A smile on everyone's face. I couldnt have been much happier. Teasing kyle cuz the world is obviously out to kill him (haha...<3). Just letting the good times role. Now I have beef with cops, and people that i dont know hate me. What a change huh? If there is one extremely important thing i've learned from this, its that you dont know who your real friends are. I dont think you can ever know for sure who your real friends are. Me, i feel it. I could be wrong. Very wrong. Lol, come to think, i was very wrong. But now, i just feel i know. Kids, Trust No1. Life will be easier. Thanks to all who showed concern for me...i didnt like it at the time but i appriciate it now. And again, Sunseri, chad, and kyle, I care for you guys as if you were my own brothers. This is a short time farewell from the kid everyone loves (or should anyway) - n00bit.