These last few days have been those that quite possibly might be the highlights of my summer. I'm more ready now than ever for summer to end i think. The expected summer fun has come, and just recently departed in peace. As much as I love everyone, i think this last month will be difficult to pull through. I realize that like, I honestly dont have a thing to worry about. I've had decisions to make, people to make happy, and problems to solve. But, its all so easy. Like i feel like i could get my ass beat by 30 dudes, And not be mad at all. Just, Finally where i've always wanted to be. I have people like tuesday in my life that i dont plan to be without anytime soon. I've also just recently fallen in love with the kid going by the names Zack, Zalds, Sac, etc. What a kid...Incredible. Definatley one that will hurt to say goodbye. This past week i've had no1 but tuesday left to chill with, Everyone being in OC. And like just her and i (then it changed into her and i with sac and rach) made it quite fun. I mean...The guys in OC are good people. But as much as it might suck, I realize now it isnt going to be as hard to say goodbye as i thought. The only kid i dont think i could live without is bill, and He's in CCAC next year, so we're still together. Amazing how things work out, Truly. At the start of this summer i had only one word on my mind, and that was party. Meeting life long friends wasnt something i imagined. I know i have atleast 2 now, and probably more. Hats off to tues and bill for always being the ones i can count on. I couldnt imagine my life without either of you two in it, and i thank god daily that i ever met you. I feel like i could get hit by a car, eaten alive, lose every dollar i have, and still consider myself lucky because i have people like you two in my life. Lately I've been kinda emotionally trashed with thoughts of if games are pointed at me or some1 else. Debating if i'm the target, or if its some1 else. Wondering if i'd Even had a chance, and being curious as to find out if i'd ruin a friendship by following my heart. For what though?...Highschool? Kinda only happens once. As much as i can think of nothing except what my dilemma is right now, I think its wrong i'm giving it this much thought. I dont think anything deserves as much thought as i have been giving to a the most recent of my problems. Lately i just cant be mad. I get stood up, People telling me they hate what i do and what i stand for. And for the first time, It doesnt matter. I've reached bob's ever talked about serenity. Nirvana of my personal self. I love every minute. Everyone reading this (all 3 of you) is saying "Yea Yea, he's said it b4" I dont know if i have to be honest, but this time its different. I'm happy to be alive. I cant wait to wake up in the morning, even if i know i'm waking up into a world of shit. Love. I guess this is a good time for a Farewell from a much happier, More laid back n00bit. So, Farewell - n00bit
