It might be time for a break

About 2 weeks ago i left the front door open. I should have just burnt it down - i would have gotten in less trouble. Night of the fireworks, i head outback to watch them with some friends. More trouble. Today i'm cleaning up from the basement, constantly taking trips in and out of the house with my hands full, and i leave it open. Logical, but still got in trouble. At this point i'm reminded almost daily of how completely useless i am. Its not big deal at all, i stopped listening a year ago. Bottom line is that me and mom are on the rocks, more so than ever. And because i'm a mindless dumbfuck teenager, its 100% my fault. It sucks living with some1 who is as mood swingy as a toddler. 18 is only a year away for me now. I've been sitting back more so now than i ever used to. I'm starting to see utter disgust among people i love. If i hang out person A, i cant hang with or mention person B, and if i'm with person A, person D E and F are against me. Its rediculous. How many rivalries there are among a group of friends. And its beginning to get real old, Real fast. If it werent for people like sunseri, tues, bill, and steph, i'd be willing to go with this purposed threat. When leaving for fishing early one morning, mom snapped. Said i was moving to ohio for a long while cuz i'm completely out of control. Going fishing - I hear u can get 25-30 years in prison...I really am out of control. In ohio my cell doesnt work, there is no computer, and my grandparents are kind of against too many long distance phone calls (or any at all, for that reason). It seemed awful at first, then i thought about it. My own mom wants me out of her life, which should say something right there. Who would i miss?... a shitload of people. Who would i not miss tho? Who would i be glad i'm not associating anymore with?...Perhaps a larger shitload of people. I dont know, its really made me think. Bill, Dowd, SHUN-seri, tues, and steph are people its hard to imagine my life without. But lately some relationships have changed. A few wont ever be the same. Danko and Krista. I know now that those two especially are hindered deeply and on the verge of extinction. Two of the people i used to care for the most gone. And as already said, My mom. I've just been doing a lot of thinking, as i'm sure a large portion of my current crew has too. It hurts to say goodbye and know that some friendships arent meant to be. In the next week, i have to decide (if the decision is left to me) if Ohio is something i want to do. Farewell. -n00bit

More fun

Over the last few days i've had quite an enjoyable time. A group of friends went out one night to kinda play B-Ball. It was at 11:30, so we decided to play and then just call it a night. I ended up crashing at danko's house for some one on one hang out time. I was losing faith and touch with him. Any doubt i had before has been yet again dismissed. I miss the guy. Last summer, trying to get poker daily and late night runs for chow is something i cant put aside. No matter how much our paths change, I'll always have his back and i think he'll always have mine. After that nothing huge happened. Until saturday. Me bill and russ headed to dowds first for some volleyball madness and had quite a good time. After sticking around for a little more than an hour, we headed to chad's grad party. We played some tenny-ball and some badmitton. Me and kyle managed to OWN anyone who crossed our path in badmitton. GFG Kyle. We said our goodbye's and headed to rach's for the night (or so we thought). We were kicked back, having a good time at her grad party. I met a few new people, which is always cool. Then i decide to go find bill. No answer on his cell, and he's nowhere to be found. Apparently he had left without me or russ. We later found out he was "kicked out" if you will by some i guess are nameless?...Not sure. Me and russ ended up chilling up stairs with rach michelle and other random's that walked in every few mins. Steph got sick :-(. Terrible time to shake hands with whatever sickness it was she had. After hanging with her boyle katie and krista for awhile i headed downstairs and outside where i just watched as the sky turned more and more blue. That night will remain in my head for one of the best time's i've ever experienced. Awesome time, and a special thanks to the phelos family for that one. I think thats all i have to share really for now. So, Farewell. - n00bit

And a secret it shall remain

Well last night was quite fun. Bill called me about 10 mins b4 tues did, so we made it a 4-some and decided to go "fun hunting", if u will. We went to carley's for a bit to recruit people, and made the decision to go to bill's. We got there with a select few and had some intense nintendo 64 fighting, which was an excellent time. Me and bill fell to the force of sunseri and dowd yet again. I wish i can relax like i did last night more often. Just have a select group of awesome people, and tell tales of fun and play games. Dowd sunseri and chuck ended up passing out in various parts of the house around 5, while me steph rach and bill stayed up. Bill and Rach are incredible people to be around. Rach laying the smackdown on steph for no reason and bill telling us how fucking worthless charmander is provies incredible amounts of laughter. And steph?...What can i say. The best person alive next to Ben Franklin (thanks for electricity brother). *Hearts*. We ended up talking until around 6:30 when steph and rach left. Me and bill had a short chat outside, but could no longer manage to keep our eyes open. Headed inside for our 4-5 hours of sleep, and here i am now. I will shorten many blades of grass in awhile, then migrate into my room for loud music and clean time. I'm off, and as always, thanks for reading. Farewell. -n00bit

Pulled apart

Well school being over is no longer something that only the seniors can enjoy. I'm free, along with all of my peers now. June 3rd was the official last day, and i walk away from my junior year with decent knowledge of calculus, hate for coach kaur, and a little more stupid for listening to Ms. Presto. I'm glad its over. I dont picture myself missing this year (schoolwise) much at all. This weekend was decent. Friday night i worked, which kinda sucked. Had decent company, but it still sucked. Didnt feel like doing much of anything after work, so i went home and rested. Saturday was a fun filled day of mainly chucks grad party. We sat there and talked for a few hours, while listening to several inhale helium and cornbread crush shit of his head. A good time. That night?...what?...NOTHING. Sunday was spent between tues's and timbobtuna's parties. Decent time pretty much all day. Me danko and bill ended up heading back to bills for some spiderman2 fun, then called it a night. I came in 4th fucking place at poker yesterday. One under the money, as usual. Annoying. Me and TWEEEENTY NINE hreha head up the the highschool every morning now and run @ 8am. Its nice actually. Thats all for now, i'm probably gonna end up coasting here until work 2nite. Same ol' shit, Different Day. Farewell. -n00bit