A long One

Wow, this week has been so insane. Monday and tuesday were normal days. I talked with everyone, saw everyone, and spoke with everyone as i normally would. When tuesday night came around though, i was hit pretty hard. I'm not really the crying type, but somewhere between talking with chad, bob, and chuck on tuesday night, my eyes filled with water. Not a full blown cry, but realizing i had to say goodbye to them the next day really hurt. Wednesday hugs were given and final goodbye's to many were spoken. It hurt. Of all the goodbye's, i do believe only 2 will stick in my head for many years to come. Second period i walked in and saw bob. I sat next to him in the back of the room, like always, so that we could talk at will. When some1 was giving a presentation i looked over at him, and he returned my look. I think at that moment is when i was pushed the furthest. I think i might miss him the most. At the end of the period we exchanged a long "farewell" hug, and walked out together. I watched as he walked down the hall, and out of sight. I know things will never be the same, but i hope we can stay close to it. The other was my one true love from the class of '05. Chad. Chad and I have grown extremely close over the last year. I have true love for him. I went out in the parking lot after school to get a ride home, and waited at his car before i departed. There he came, with nicci, approaching the car. We talked, gave nicci a final highschool manwich, and he got in his car. I leaned in, and gave my final goodbye's. It was hard to walk away from the car. I dont know why, i'll c him atleast once a week this summer. It was just hard. It was my final senior farewell. I miss them all already. Coach's and Hausman's class's are so different without you guys. You'll be rememberd as long as I'm around. After all the heartbreaks and goodbye's were spoken, i went back to school, alone. I sat in bob's seat in stats on the first day back, reflecting on all our good times. How i miss him. Other than the goodbye, school went normal. Boring. Ms. Presto being fucking retarded. Yada Yada. Friday night came, Prom night. Thats right, no matter how wrong it is, i went to senior prom with another junior. We got in the limo at craigs house. Watched a movie on the way up there, then got to the hilton. Steph was looking awesome, as was the rest of the crew we were with. We got in (after some difficulty at the door) and got a seat. Excellent table i must say. Had dinner, hypnosis thingy, and then a few hours of dancing. I honestly could have had no more fun if i tried. I dont think there coulda been a better pick for a date. Steph, if your reading this, i <3 you. This is probably the first school dance thing i've been to where i've been 100% satisfied and happy with my date. Thanks for the great time steph. Went to dan's after prom, and i dont even wanna talk about it. WOW. And here i am now. Partying tonight after work, and sunday night into memorial day. I'll catch you all later, and thanks for reading. Farewell. -n00bit

Tomorrow, Its over.

The end is near for the seniors. One more day and they are but a memory in my highschool days.

I'm not the only one counting

This weekend i spent a total of 3 mins at my house. Mom was in Ohio for saturday and into sunday, so i had it pretty good. Friday night there was a planned bon-fire up at alderson's, but that fell through cuz of the rain. I ended up heading back to bills for with a select few for a decent time. Saturday bill drove me to work in the somewhat early AM, where i enjoyed the company of low sugar trix and cosmic bowling. Me and sunseri got tux's (finally) for prom. Ended up eating taco's at sunseri's then heading over to rach's late night to crash there. Mom came home and was pissed (surprising i know). She doesnt like the idea of me going to sleep at other's houses, then chilling all day here at home base. Worked 2nite, which was interuppted by a visit from tues sunseri court and alderson. Thats my weekend in a paragraph. Now for the FYI not needed stuff. The title comes from the whole "me moving out" thing. I thought i was the only one looking forward to freedom, but apparently i'm not. My mom and i had another conversation tonight where she just tells me how completely and utterly useless i am. Your right, i'm used to it by now. I mentioned "What if i dont move when i'm 18" and she almost fainted. She cant seem to wait until the day, July 18th, 2006, when i turn 18. Sucks when your own mother makes it obvious she wants you gone. I'm not worried about it. Next thing, I dont recommend anyone to work at princess lanes. Cuz, well...it's awful. Good job, truly, but the people really just suck. Right now, i work there and have my face run into the ground, followed by me coming home and mother doing the same thing. I'm sounding woah is me...not my intention. Point is, i just need to be 18. And fast. Thats all for now. Farewell - n00bit

Jazz Isnt Bad

Well, worked friday night and then just kinda went home and chilled. Saturday night. Two words. O baby. I dont think i could have had too much of a better time if i tried. Somewhere between court trying to kill me, and listening to phelos stories...I realized i have it pretty good. I like the people i'm around, and i think i'm finally starting to have myself better known. Just a few months ago, my only friends were jarrett and poker. It was a sad life i led. Meeting people and having nights like saturday is incredible. I dont really want that to ever end. The phelos family is pretty much just awesome. Bill is the man. He's some1 i can picture being a good friend of mine for quite some time to come. Russ Coz talks to me, almost considers me an equal (which is enuf to die happy right there). Just a basic good time last saturday. Sunday, woke up and helped sweet meat clean up. Bill and i did lunch, then went out to bowl with mutti. Chilled until tues and sunseri picked me up for some cross country basket and robbins. Pretty good weekend. I dare to say it was worry free, and an all round good time. Cut the grass today, and i'll probably just chill here 2nite. I need some rest. It has begun, the summer feeling. Sublime's summer time is on loop pretty much every second of my life. This one is probably going to be the best yet. For now, I depart. Farewell - n00bit

Be careful what you wish for

Edit here: No comments. Please, drop one by once and awhile so i know this shit's being read at all. Even if its a comment telling me this thing sucks, i just want comments. Of course, preferaly positive ones. Ok, here's the entry as i had originally wrote it now-_-_-_- Well, here i am. Reborn as a free man once again. No longer held down by stupid restrictions. Un-Grounded. In all my past blogs of being kinda in the dumps, i've said several times that each day seems worse than the last. To go back would be fantastic. Well, with summer rapidly approaching, they might. I'm getting to talk with some of the people i've lost over the past year. And, those who are newer in my life are leaving. Its kinda nice. When summer comes i hope chad and i can hang out constantly like we did b4 lax started up. Those were the days. Before summer however, comes school. I've lost all motivation. Nothing left at all. I go, and just daze. Stare blankly at the teacher, not taking in a single word that is said. I have no doubt that my grade will reflect that, but i'm ok with that. I've always been told to just do the best you can, nothing more can be asked. Well, for having Zero motivation, i think i'm doing pretty darn good. My best, for sure. I started the countdown for how many days are left. I started too early this year, making it only more depressing. The count as of today?...19 days. Damn. I had to work tonight, as i will 2morow night, down at village lanes. Conjested area, not much fun. During work, i called Tues and asked if something was going down. She said maybe bills. After work i call bill, Tues is coming. I call her. No answer. Call again. No answer. Surprised?...Not really. I'm not going to say she deliberatly didnt answer my calls, because i dont know the facts. Just, seems a little fishy...No? So here i am. Alone and bored on a saturday morning writing in here. Relaxed more than ever, and glad to be back in the free world. The fact that i couldve gone out tonight makes the night a sucess as it is. Kali = (cool)^2. Farewell for now. -n00bit