Family can be overrated

Well, its been a week. Not good, not bad, just a week. On tuesday, i went bowling. My favorite krista (i only know two...the other one is a huge whore) came back here to wait for a ride. She went on the computer to go on AIM cuz her's is broke. Well, while signing onto mothers comp, I see an Icon on her desktop that is labeled "Days until move out". As much as I would like to think this had nothing to do with me, I kinda had a feeling it did. I clicked it, double clicked actually, and found my thoughts were correct. I opened it to find the current days date, my birthday (18th), and then a number of days left. Kinda hurtful. As much as i've known for some time now that my own mother wants me gone, i've never actually seen cold hard proof. I dont know, just kinda made my heart sink kinda low. Nothing i can't handle i guess. I got to thinking though, when i saw that. I hear often times when people speak of family, how strong the bond is supposed to be. You know, with the whole "Blood is thicker than water" stuff. All that. Well, i have a mom that obviously cant fucking wait til i'm gone, A dad that i dont know where he is (travels for his job), grandparents that dont like me because i got taken down by the ROE-lice back in feb, and an extended family that i dont Ever talk to. And when i say never, i mean never. Thats my "Family" in a nutshell. So, when it comes to family, I officially have absolutely no one to turn to. I look up to people around me like Bill, Dowd, Tues, Krista, Steph, and Rach to take the role of my "blood". I know i can count on a select few around me to turn to. I know they'll never actually be family, but for now, it helps to think of them that way. People i can trust as if they were family. In a year, i may know all of them, Half of them...None of them. Who knows. But for now, its all i've got. I'm still upbeat and as happy as ever. I like knowing that this is it. Highschool is wrapping up. The people i've grown up with since second grade?, Nothing but a memory after this year. Its a Free feeling. This is a signoff for me. Farewell - n00bit.

Who says I dont know how to have fun?

Let me just kick this off saying that this weekend was definately one to remember. Friday night we headed to cozo's for some drinking madness. There were 20 people. 5-6 of those people werent 15. Yet, somehow it still ended up being a good night. Went to work the next day @ 4:30. Had a good time as i usually do working with matty in that underground laboratory. That night, Sacs house for another good time. When i came in the door zack gave me a running headstart hug. I couldnt have been happier than to just give the kid a bear hug. Missed him quite a bit and it was great being able to be with him, even if only for a night. I know this sounds gay, but anyone that knows sac knows what i'm talking about. Everyone was hammered, Except me and the dizowd, who found other methods of fun. Dowd, Good kid. Sunseri fucked up his ankle when we had a cop scare. Not sure how it happened, but apparently he's currently on crutches. And he called BILL lefty. ;-). You know i <3. The only bad thing about that night is that stace and steph had to take an early departure, and i havent seen them in ages. <3 u guys, *phelos deprived*. Last night krista and the dizowd ended up crashing at my place for some random fun. I think we ended up passing out around 7:30 this morning. Now, i have to go to work and CRAM schoolwork. Someone told me my saying of "Pleasure before Work" is backwards or something?...I dont know. But Yea, i'm off to relax til 4:30, at which point the hell will begin. A special thanks to rach, sac, and the dizowd for making this FO' sho a weekend to remember. <3 you guys. This is a temporary goodbye. Farewell - n00bit.