Regret, maybe?

Well tonight was, interesting. This is the first friday that i went tues and sunseri less. To be honest?...I cant handle it. Almost some sort of an addiction to them. We had a good time overall. I guess i'm just use to a different type of chilling. Lets see, the usual crew is me tues sunseri court, and then alderson, his sis as maybe's. Tonight?...me steph stace kyle abe and krista, then court for a lil bit. I mean, it was fun, just different for me. Both crews have good people (except for krista, cuz she's awful)...;)...Just different. I'm thinking what it might be is kyle. Kinda always there. For every positive, he has a negative. For every negative, he has another negative. I'm a generally happy person...Negativity pisses me off. We try helping him out and stace is kind enough to go to prom with him. Meanwhile, he wants more. He wants us to like fucking wipe his ass. Rediculous. More pathetic than rediculous. Stace = awsome... extremely. *Shrugs*. Some people suck more than others...beats me. *Misses tues and sunseri*. Well, u wanna know whats awsome? Starting May 6th, I'm no longer grounded. Begging to breathe outside of the house won have to occur. Asking of course, but easy asking, followed more than 99% of the time with a Yes. Ah, Those were the days. Finally, they're returning. Tonight i had to come home by 12, instead of going to hannah's (forgive me for slaying of spelling) for some extreme wild fun. Its hard now, but i just keep telling myself that its only days away now. :-D. I've actually also decided (and yes, kinda of a sudden thing yet almost expected) that court and steph are like, completely awsome. Court i love as if i've known her all my life, the closest thing to a sister in my life up near krista and amanda. Steph is just...incredibly unique and awsome. *cant put it any other way*. I realized that i've almost developed a family outside of my own. My true brothers?...Chad and sunseri. Sister's?...Court Krista and Amanda(happy b-day :-D). Somehow, me being the only child i am, love these 5 people more than i think i could love my own blood. They are my blood. Be there through thick and thin...Tough and easy. Good people, truly. And thanks to you guys for being there whenever it is i need you. Last thing of the night...I bought WILL SMITH's new CD. INcredible...truly. Switch?... Thats all for now i suppose, thanks for reading as always. Farewell - n00bit.

Whoa...A touching movie indeed

I'm not the type to get mushy. I'm the kid that thought Ol' Yeller had it coming. Movies never really get to me. Today, i took a sick day from school. Felt like shit for the back half of yesterday and the front half of 2day. I was bored, so i checked out On-Demand. Nothing good in the movie department, so i decided to just pick something random and check it out. The movie i randomly picked?..."My Life without Me". It, was, Incredible. It hits my top 5 most meaningful movies of all time. I truly enjoyed it. The basic plot is that a lady who has a loving family belives she's pregnant with the family's 3rd child. She faints, ends up at the doctor alone, and finds out she is going to die. She has 2 months tops. She's only 25 and has a full life ahead of her. Just putting myself in the main character's shoe's was realistic enough, but it went on to tell of her family. It just...in the most non-gay way possible...reached out to me. Truly a spectacular movie and i reccomend it to anyone that can allow enough time to watch it. The interesting thing about it?...She doesnt tell a single sole that she is going to die. She leaves tapes for everyone. Whether it be to explain why she didnt tell them she was dying, or to express her true love, everything was in tapes. Just made me think of how i would handle being told i'm going to die sometime in the next 2 months. Ok, thats all for now. Check this one out. Farewell - n00bit

Over It

Well, its been awhile since i updated. Its either been nothing happening, or too much happening which doesnt allow me to post. Kyle has gone from having a mild to severe hatred towards me to us being cool. Glad we're back to the cool stages. Saturday night i was kinda gayed. Well, a little more than kinda. In a nutshell, several people lied to me about something...one after another...and some1 that wasnt informed of it told me the truth. I've had some time to think about it now. Sunseri is some one i care for as a dear friend. Although it seemed the lie was purposley told, him and tues could have been doing it out of the goodness of their heart. Not sure why, or how, but i believe that You two wouldnt do that to me purposley. Forgiven but hard to be forgotten. As for Johnny and Danks, not sure what to think anymore. In life, everyone establishes people that they think have their back. I've been fairly confident for quite some time now that danko had mine. Proven to be quite apparently wrong on saturday. Again, i've thought about it, and it coulda been for good reasons. Doubted, but it coulda been.The trust with those two is evaporated. Really, i'm thinking it shoulda been while ago. Sucks, but well deserved and needed. We also got report cards since i updated. You know how many D's i've gotten in all of highschool? None. Until this time. And i thought frau was bad. Laugh. I think thats all for now, everything else has been to minor to remember or not exciting enough to recollect on. Farewell and thanks for reading - n00bit. P.S. Kali is (cool)^2

Uh Oh, Not this again

Today was the first day of three days to be spent for PSSA testing. Math and reading are now being tested. Both make me feel retarded. If i fail, it will be worth of a "Kill Yourself" patch. First period Ms. Presto acted like a complete ass in front of the class...Mainly because she's so good at it. Lunch was interesting. I saw the damage done to krista's hand. Interesting to say the least. Then the shit hits the fan. You know how in life, when people tell you something and tell you to keep it a secret, how there's (in most cases) one person you confide in? Well, for a long time i hated it. I couldnt stand when some1 let loose something i said not to tell. Well today, i played the bad guy. A True friend, one of the Extreme few i have, Brian Vitunic confided in me. And i blew it. I told some one i knew (thought) wouldnt say a word. And it came back to bite me in the ass. I dont blame anyone but myself for it, but i couldnt be any more deeply sorry and appologetic. If something is told to me to be kept secret, I consider myself some one that is very good at not saying a word. This time, it slipped. I put too much trust in too many wrong people. Its been a problem i've had. One of those people is myself though. Vitunic, if your reading this, I couldnt be any more sorry. I never realize what kind of a novelty trust is until I lose it. And this time, I think i really lost it. I not only lost it on the recieving end, but also on the giving. Farewell and again, Sorry - n00bit